I’m Evan. Evan Samuel Lareau.
Evan was born on June 17th at 5:22pm, weighing 8lbs 7oz and measured 21.5 inches long. He was in no rush to get here, arriving ten days after his due date and taking about a day and a half to make his entrance. Erin did great through the whole labor and delivery although Evan was a little stressed. However, once he was out he did great and there were no complications with Evan or Erin. We came home from the hospital two days later and have been adjusting to life with a newborn. Thank you to everyone who has been praying for us through this whole process from adoption to getting pregnant and bringing home Evan. More to come soon…
Hi Erin. You don’t know me but Daniel has been a big part of our lives, although we all lose touch (ummm, yeah Dan, I’m talking to you. You’re not even my friend on fb. I netter hear from you) after I can’t remember the year but we watched and waved as Dandy (Dan and Andy) drove there huge truck toward the west as young men.
The reason I’m writing to you is that years ago, while you were engaged (sorry we couldn’t make it to your wedding) way back in the days of myspace, I spied on your page to see just who Daniel was marrying (you see I believe Dan was a little nervous about introducing you to some of his college friends, specifically me, bc of my infamous big mouth, and my husband bc, well, bc he’s Chach) and I read something about you in one of those, ‘about me’ spots that made you stick in my mind. You said that one of or maybe your greatest fear was not being able to carry your own children, get pregnant, something to that effect. You see, I had no idea at the time but that was one of my deepest fears too. And I kept on thinking about you as I and later you trudged, slogged, barely made it through the jaws of infertility. I had already become a doula and was on my way to becoming a midwife, but this isn’t about me.
It still twists my heart, less and less, when I learn of a new pregnancy. But when I learned of Evan’s birth, my heart first twisted and then I was so glad for you. That your deepest fear did not come true as I thought God had been especially cruel to both of us.
We finished our home study today. Our little boy, Shephard, is due on July 22nd. This is the birth mother’s fourth baby in 5 1/2 years so we’re anxiously hoping she will be a wee bit early. The birth father is actually a former student of mine. We’ve been in their lives for about ten years and when Alli got pregnant again, this was their gift to us and our baby as they know his life will be better for the adoption.
Just wanted you to know that you’ve been on this journey w/me, even though we’ve never met. I applaud your continued faith through your sadness. I am ecstatic to become a mom but I’m afraid I must admit my faith is still in tatters.
Congratulations to you, Erin and to my dear (dearly missed) friend, Daniel. I can only imagine your joy. I am truly truly happy for both of you, but for you, Erin, in particular.
With so much love…
Molly, thank you for sharing. Infertility is something I would NEVER wish on anyone…so many of my friends have struggled through the devastation of not being able to conceive. It’s difficult not to question God: why me? did I do something wrong? am I being punished? have you forgotten about me? do you care about me? These are all questions that I was forced to work through. While Dan and I were struggling to conceive (which was a much shorter journey than most), I came to a place where I realized that who God is isn’t dependent on my circumstances. He’s holy, His ways are perfect (even when it’s difficult and I don’t necessarily agree at the time), He wants what’s best for us (even if getting us there requires pain and heart-ache). Difficult pills to swallow, but it was a freeing place for me to come to because the fear of never being able to be pregnant or have kids was crippling.
Congratulations on Shephard!!! I hope and pray he’s filling your heart and home with lots and lots of joy. Shephard is really blessed to have you as his Momma!!
Love,
Erin
love you evan.
love you dan.
love you erin.
love you molly.